It’s the 19th of January, 2018. I’m sitting at my
work space reading an article on Business Insider about the marriage of
Mackenzie and Jeff Besos and listening to Labrinth. And it hit me; I need to
start writing again- like serious writing. I stop what I’m doing and I begin to
script this piece. Today is a really good day. I feel great in my body minus the
muscle aches from gym. I feel sound in my mind, hopeful and genuinely happy. Just
a mere month ago I didn’t feel so happy and at peace. My mind was riddled with
thoughts; diminishing ones, my health was on a downward spiral among other very
personal matters I’m not ready to share just yet.
As 2018 approached I was skeptical, wanting to make a change
for the better and stick to it this time. We all make those New Year’s
resolutions and fall short along the way. I was determined however to stop
living in my head and actually start living a fulfilling life- one that only I
could give myself.
I woke up one morning, called my friend and said I wanted to
start the gym. Sure enough he goes on mornings and that was exactly what I
needed. For the past three weeks that has been my refuge, shutting out every
other thing that bogs me down and putting myself in that mental space needed to
take control of my life. And with the gym came the plan to do the whole30 “reset”
diet for thirty days. No sugar, no alcohol, no dairy, no grains. It’s a lot, but
you have to believe me when I say it’s worth it. I’m already half-way there.
I’m taking the time to take care of me first, shutting out
those things and people that don’t deserve my attention at this very moment. This
feels right- It feels right to say “no”. It feels right to say, “I think I need
a break for now”. Slowly but surely I’m convinced that this is my time to
become what I’m supposed to be. I look forward to coming on this platform to
share my story with those who wish to listen. Hopefully it inspires someone to
live their truth, as simply as possible.
Until next time…Love…Nisha…
