How long does a particular season of your life last? Well, however long it is necessary.
I say this because for the last four and a half years of my life I have felt stuck and it is causing me extreme discomfort.
For those of you who knew me prior to 2016, I was more optimistic, joyful and in great health. Something changed when I decided to move to another country, leaving behind family, friends and my TRIBE!
Four and a half years on, I find myself constantly anxious and depressed, worried about my now, my future, worried for my daughter. I’ve gained over 60 pounds, gained bad eating and sleeping habits and I am ashamed to say, perpetually unhappy.
Yes, there are moments when the world stops and the vibrant, optimistic, confident being shines through but that is not my normal.
I say all of this to ask-what causes a person to feel this way? Why does it last as long as it does? And what can we do to get to the other side of that turbulent season. Quite frankly, whatever I try doesn’t seem to offer sustained relief.
I know there will be those who will read this post and immediately tell me to take it down, or that people don’t need to know my business. And that may be their thoughts about it, but I do it because others are going through similar things.
In the midst of our happy moments on Facebook and Instagram, people are suffering internally. Often times the places we turn to for help are not the best of places and leave us feeling worse than when we came.
I am not the carefree person I was back then but I’d like to gain the courage to be. If someone looking on the outside feels differently; feel free to share with me.
I pray this season will soon be over….
Until next time….
Your Thirty-Something year old
